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FLASHBACKS IN POST TRAUMATIC STRESS DISORDER WEDNESDAY – DAY THREE

This week I’ve been interviewing a remarkable young woman on my blog who is recovering from PSTD. She has been giving me a fascinating interview and I’m sensing that it hasn’t received the viewing attention we are hoping for. She has written a book covering her impossible life since childhood and many years of her difficult adult life that led to her PSTD. In my opinion, this is an important issue that more individuals should be aware of. There is hope for these victims, which she speaks about with excitement and trust in the Lord to heal others of this distressing disorder. Since this interview was to be posted in daily intervals for five days….and I feel it is important enough to not publish the third day, tomorrow, so that we can encourage traffic to my blog to read the interview before we publish the third, fourth and final episodes. Honestly folks, we hope you will just give us a look and see if you’re not prompted to follow the rest of the postings. There is no intention of offending anyone…the intention is toward Leslie Raddatz to let others read and hear of her experiences that led to her authoring a book soon to be released. She has worked very hard and is finally receiving public attention through radio and her local news. She deserves all the attention she is worthily due.

Thank you and God bless you all,

Barb Shelton

FLASHBACKS IN POST TRAUMATIC STRESS DISORDER TUESDAY – DAY TWO

LESLIE RADDATZ INTERVIEW 


FLASHBACKS IN POST TRAUMATIC 

STRESS DISORDER


TUESDAY – DAY TWO


Barb:  Hello Leslie and Good Friends,

It’s Tuesday already and I’m glad to see everyone so chipper and ready to hear more of your miraculous story of how you are recovering from Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) Leslie..  God has showered much mercy and grace on your life and the lives of your family. You are glorifying him by helping others have victory over this disorder.  I know it’s not always easy and we’ve had several wonderful generous comments sent in to you since yesterday cheering you on. I hope they are of great encouragement to you….I know they must be.


Leslie:   I am so excited that we are getting responses.  Most of the responses on my blog are intended for the blog discussion I leave open for their comments. I invite anyone to my website and blog if they are interested in learning even more about PTSD.  I will provide my email address also if anyone would care to write me. 


Barb:   We’ll hopefully have many that will check your sites out for further information.  Leslie, yesterday, we concluded our discussion when I asked you a question.  I remember not being able to respond aptly about the childhood trauma you had suffered.  I asked you how you became aware of the possibility that you were suffering from PTSD.  I still want you to respond to that question, but perhaps we should fill our readers in on some of the terms you have used to describe your situation.  I’m glad you’re so familiar with the psychology of what you’ve gone through, but personally, I would like a bit of background on what the terms conversion and somatization; as well as EMDR and Brainspotting mean.  PTSD is terrifying enough to be its victim, and I’m not familiar with what conversion and somatization disorders are?  Can you please explain them so our readers can have an understanding of them? 


Leslie:  Gladly, Conversion Disorder is when your body is affected by your anxiety level and will start showing you life threatening symptoms.  This is a way to protect anyone’s mind from breaking down and instead your body gives out.  For example, I had all the symptoms of a stroke.  I lost my memory, numbness in head, face, hands, legs, couldn’t speak or read, didn’t know where I was, forgot I had my 15 month old son with me, and didn’t recognize my husband.  I also didn’t know who the president was, my address or what year it was.  It was the scariest thing I have ever experienced.


Somatization is having the real symptoms of a stroke and the doctor’s test results come back normal. They are unable to diagnose me with any illness.  So from a doctor’s point of view, I am either lying about my symptoms or I am a hypochondriac.  That was when I wasn’t diagnosed. I found a psychiatrist that knew what was wrong with my health problems and finally diagnosed me with the disorders.  I thought I was going crazy.  I was so thankful for the diagnoses because I kept what was happening to me a secret for 11 years suffering by myself.  My husband and I finally understand what is happening so I can cope better to each situation.

 

However, I asked my Psychiatrist “How will I know when the symptoms are for real?”  His response was I won’t.  So If I ever experience life threatening symptoms like a stroke or have chest pain like a heart attack, I have to go to the emergency room to be checked out.  He told me that the more that I have my Post Traumatic Stress Disorder under control the better the other two disorders will be. So I need to be careful not to get too stressed out and make sure I take my medications on time so my PTSD stays in control.


Barb:  Thank you.  That puts a light on this subject for me and I’m pleased you shared that in such an understandable manner.  I asked you before how you became aware of the possibility that you were suffering from PTSD.  We’ll ask for your explanation of EMDR and Brainspotting after we hear your answer.  Is that ok with you….this won’t throw you off the subject, will it? LOL


 Leslie: Won’t bother me at all.   My symptoms started out with panic attacks, zoning out, dizzy spells, staying up all night worrying about things that were out of my control and nightmares. I was afraid to be alone and paranoid someone was trying to kill me.

 

My symptoms progressed and I couldn’t control my emotions anymore. I was constantly yelling at my children because my PTSD symptoms were so out of control.  The loud noises, smells, repeating of words would bother me deeply. I would scream for everyone to be quiet!  They looked at me so strange because my husband would say “we are not being loud, honey.”  When you have PTSD you have a lot of sensitivities such as smell, hearing, touch, sight, because one thing can trigger you back to a memory of your abuse.  My sensitivity to someone touching me affected my relationship with my daughters and husband.

 

This was so sad because my daughter was 12 years old at the time and was unable to hug me without it triggering me because it gave me flashbacks to my ex-husband’s abuse.   If she first asked for a hug, it was fine but the minute she just hugged me without asking me first it would trigger me back to being raped and having my choices taken away. This lasted for three years until I received therapy in 2010.


For my other daughter,11 years old at the time, her yelling and her temper would intimidate me because my ex-husband would get angry and punch holes in the walls so it would give me flashbacks to his angry outbursts and abuse.

  

I was forced to go into to therapy because my health started to decline with my Conversation and Somatization Disorders.  When I had EMDR therapy it triggered rape memories, and me, at the age of 14 years old, would surface. I, 14 year old, was unable to sleep and feel safe with my husband so I slept in my four year old son’s bedroom for months.  Then with the help of intense therapy I was able to learn to talk to the child within that was being triggered. 


I as the adult knew my husband, whom I have been with for 11 years, was safe but the 14 years old rape victim would surface each time we enter the bedroom.  My adult self was able to help her realize that my husband was safe.  It is so strange having PTSD because I am the adult but when triggered I feel the child victim’s feelings and react as if she would as a frightened child.  The whole time I am aware of what is going on but it is hard to control my body and actions.  People would think this means I am crazy but it doesn’t it is different parts of myself stuck in the past that gets triggered by people, environment, smells, touch, sound, flashbacks and body memories.

 

In order to get the each part of myself unstuck, I have to nurture and love the child within so she can heal. Anything the child within didn’t experience my adult self has provided it.  So in my case I had parental neglect, physical, emotional abuse, rape and molestation.  The adult self has to convince the child within, while triggered, that she is safe, loved, protected, her needs are being met, etc. The EMDR, Brainspotting, Eco State, Resource Building, Positive Imagery, and Art Therapies help to release and reprocess the trauma memories that when triggered feel like they are in the present and reprocess the memories so the triggers disappear.  When the triggers disappear for a certain situation then that means my brain recognizes that the threat happened in the past and can no longer hurt me.


Barb   Too Incredible!  Leslie, it really is a miracle that you survived all of this terror.  This was all going on with you, your friend and your sisters. That is horrible. Somewhere…maybe it’s what I remember reading in the Bible…that the truth will out.  God knew your unhappiness and tempestuous childhood and now as an adult, he is healing you.  He obviously knew your limit of “taking it” had been reached.


Leslie: I do praise my Father in heaven for knowing me and interceding in my situation. I have too many instances I could relate to you, but I’m a different person now, and I don’t need to keep reliving the bad times in my past.

 

Barb:     That is marvelous, Leslie.  I think you have worked hard today explaining things.  If it’s alright with you, lets stop now and plan on you explaining how EMDR AND Brainspotting have been used in your therapy.  I’m fascinated with everything you say and can’t wait to hear more of your story.


Leslie:  That’s fine, Barb.  With this break, I can do a little brushing up on how to explain those therapies.  I hope everyone that has come in to read this will return tomorrow.  I look forward to it.


Barb:  Your concern for others affected by this diabolical disorder is quite evident and I applaud your efforts and interest in helping others injured and emotionally hurt by this trauma.  Readers can be sure of finding your web address at the end of our interview.  Oh, and folks, Leslie informed me that her radio interview is up on  the LATalkRadio station,  That’s Max & Friends. Go to the website below, and scroll to the bottom of Max’s page to find the replay schedule, click on the show you want to replay and listen.The psychologist on the show with Leslie was Kathy Z. (http://www.latalkradio.com/Max.php


Thank you for dropping by today.  Please return again tomorrow for the third episode in my interview with Leslie Raddatz.  She will be explaining more about EMDR and Brainspotting as well as more of her story.


Have a Blessed Day,

Barb


TO BE CONTINUED TOMORROW!


*Responses from States/Countries:  

POSTED TO LESLIE’S WEBSITE:  www.silencednolonger.com     

USA– Wisconsin, Oklahoma, Rhode Island, Florida, Oregon, Massachusetts, Missouri, Michigan, Illinois, North Carolina, South Carolina, Connecticut, Kentucky, Pennsylvania, Georgia, Maryland, Texas, California, Colorado, Idaho, Virginia, Tennessee, New York, Ohio, Arkansas, Washington, Maine, Arizona, New Jersey, Utah, Montana, Nevada, Minnesota, Alabama, North Dakota and Iowa, Mexico. Canada, Brazil, Saint Vincent and the Grenadines, Europe -Iceland, Russia, UK, Australia- Australia, Asia-Iran, India, Philippines, Hong Kong, Pakistan, United Arab Emirates, Turkey, Africa– Kenya, Nigeria

POSTED TO LESLIE’S BLOG:  www.silencednolonger.blogspot.com 

United States, Russia, Canada, Germany, United Kingdom, Austria, Malaysia, France, Italy, Ukraine, Brazil, Romania, Ireland, Japan, Saint Vincent and the Grenadines, Pakistan, Jamaica, Netherlands, China, Spain, Uganda, Mexico, Czech Republic, United Arab Emirates, India, Kenya, and Latvia, Oman, Nigeria, Thailand, Georgia, Australia, Poland, Indonesia, Columbia, Switzerland, Portugal, Sweden, Philippines, South Africa, Saudi Arabia


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FLASHBACKS IN POST TRAUMATIC STRESS DISORDER

LESLIE RADDATZ INTERVIEW 

FLASHBACKS IN POST TRAUMATIC STRESS DISORDER

Day One

LESLIE RADDATZ

 (This is the first in a series of five interviews with Leslie Raddatz covering mature extensive material on PSTD)

Barb:    Hello friends, It is my privilege to introduce my friend, Leslie Raddatz. Leslie, welcome. I’m so pleased to do this interview with you. You have quite a story to tell.

Leslie: Thank you so much Barb for having me. Yes, it is exciting to know that I have written a memoir that will help many victims, survivors and their loved ones all over the world to understand my three disorders.

Barb: Leslie has overcome a crippling disorder that has destroyed many lives and affected families all over the world. Being a disease that seems to be unique and recognized as what can happen to an individual following extreme trauma. Leslie, please inform us about Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD), what it is and what causes it.

Leslie: Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) is a severe anxiety disorder that can develop after exposure to any event that can result in psychological trauma. This event may involve the threat of death to oneself or to someone else close to us; or to one’s self or someone else’s physical, sexual, or psychological integrity.

Barb: You are to be commended, Leslie, this is a tremendous undertaking for you.  It is obvious to me and everyone who knows and meets you that the Lord is with you. Jesus must be very concerned about this entire tragedy and he has assigned you a big job. I’m excited for you. When did you know your past experiences were needed to help others?

Leslie: I started my blog and website the last week of November 2011 and have reached many people all over the world. Some have chatted with me on facebook and some privately by email. I have received testimonials from the survivors I have already helped. I have been honest and open with them when they had questions and also suggested coping skills that worked for me. I was impressed to find out that one of the survivors I helped was referred by my psychiatrist to check out my website and blog.

Barb: You’ve mentioned to me that you’ve received amazing response from your blog and website. Break that down a bit for us.

Leslie: People have accessed my website (http://www.silencednolonger.com/) from thirty-six states in America, about seventeen nations or countries, and five continents. People have accessed my blog (http://silencednolonger.blogspot.com) from forty-one countries around the world.  I feel very humbled by all the response – it came overwhelmingly fast. *

Barb:   Leslie, I can’t hold this back any longer, I just really need to throw this right in about you being interviewed on the Max & Friends (Max Tucci) show on LA Talk Radio last evening. I’m so impressed with your presentation and chat with Max. Hearing what you said helped me understand what you’ve been through and how you have approached your recovery. I had tears in my eyes – your life seemed so unreal – but the sad part is that it’s true: and as Max said…the past does not define who you are now. You were joined on the show by Kathy Lee Parker and I’m not sure if she is a psychologist, but she has also written a book on this subject. I enjoyed the conversation you and she had with Max.

Leslie: Oh yes…thank you, I’m so glad you listened. If others would like to listen, they can go to (http://www.latalkradio.com/Max.php) that is Max & Friends page. Scroll to the bottom of that page and find a schedule of shows to replay. It was a wonderful experience, an encouraging experience to say the least.

Barb:   Oh, great.  Thank you for adding that.  I hope many of you will listen to the show.  As a matter of fact…..Leslie is here to tell us about the book she has written and soon to be published. The title of her book is “FLASHBACKS IN POST TRAUMATIC STRESS DISORDER: SURVIVING THROUGH THE FLOOD.”  Leslie, what prompted you to author a book about such a complex subject?

Leslie: I am a survivor of severe childhood neglect, physical and emotional abuse, rape and molestation. I have PTSD, Conversion and Somatization Disorders. Unknown to me at the time, I was suffering with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, Conversion and Somatization disorders for 11 years. It didn’t affect me until I was 23 years old when I began having panic attacks. It took a lot of time away from my family, personal happiness, ruined my health and personal power while keeping my abusers’ secrets safe. When I started to receive therapy and my repressed memories started to surface with the help of EMDR and Brainspotting therapy. It became overwhelming because instead of memories slowly surfacing the memories surfaced too fast which my therapist called flooding. So my book started out as a coping skill of journaling my feelings during and after panic attacks and trigger episodes, and also after each therapy session. I decided why let others suffer through it while being fearful of what is happening to them. So I decided to change the format into a book and made that my focus throughout my therapy. I made it my personal mission to help others so they don’t have to go through the emergency stages of healing alone.

Barb: Have any of your responders offered help and advice to you as you reach out to victims? How would you know what to do first with such speedy results of people responding to your blog and website?

Leslie: Oh yes, Blair Corbett, Executive Director for the Ark of Hope (http://www2.children.org) invited me to become a Facilitator for the Justice for All Revolution (justiceforallrevolution.com ). The website has 19 live chat rooms for victims of rape, molestation, addicts, mental illness, child and adult abuse and more. If you go to the website, and select Team, Facilitators, you will see my photo and my profile to read about my story.

Barb:  Oh, Leslie…I’m not quite sure what to respond ….you’ve had terrible upheaval in your childhood. How did you become aware of the possibility that you were suffering from PTSD?

Thank you for dropping by today.  Please return again tomorrow for the second episode in my interview with Leslie Raddatz.  She will be explaining more about somatization and conversion disorders.
Have a Blessed Day,
Barb
TO BE CONTINUED TOMORROW!
*Responses from States/Countries:
POSTED TO LESLIE’S WEBSITE:  www.silencednolonger.com     
USA– Wisconsin, Oklahoma, Rhode Island, Florida, Oregon, Massachusetts, Missouri, Michigan, Illinois, North Carolina, South Carolina, Connecticut, Kentucky, Pennsylvania, Georgia, Maryland, Texas, California, Colorado, Idaho, Virginia, Tennessee, New York, Ohio, Arkansas, Washington, Maine, Arizona, New Jersey, Utah, Montana, Nevada, Minnesota, Alabama, North Dakota and Iowa, Mexico. Canada, Brazil, Saint Vincent and the Grenadines, Europe -Iceland, Russia, UK, Australia- Australia, Asia-Iran, India, Philippines, Hong Kong, Pakistan, United Arab Emirates, Turkey, Africa– Kenya, Nigeria
POSTED TO LESLIE’S BLOG:  www.silencednolonger.blogspot.com 
United States, Russia, Canada, Germany, United Kingdom, Austria, Malaysia, France, Italy, Ukraine, Brazil, Romania, Ireland, Japan, Saint Vincent and the Grenadines, Pakistan, Jamaica, Netherlands, China, Spain, Uganda, Mexico, Czech Republic, United Arab Emirates, India, Kenya, and Latvia, Oman, Nigeria, Thailand, Georgia, Australia, Poland, Indonesia, Columbia, Switzerland, Portugal, Sweden, Philippines, South America
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(http://www.latalkradio.com/Max.php) that is Max & Friends page.